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Stepping Out On The Field

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She had five years of lacrosse experience with one of the top programs in Georgia. She had competed in many tournaments at a young age when most girls didn't have that opportunity in Idaho. But here she stood looking at a lacrosse field unable to move.  She knew the sport well but didn't know anyone now that she moved back to Idaho. It was a sport she loved and had grown up playing, but this time, for some reason, fear was winning this competition. It paralyzed not just her body, but her motivation to try, her drive to compete, and ability to overcome insecurity even though she had talent, skill, and had every physical and mental capability to do it well. That wasn't enough. It took a crying mother to get her on that field. Rewind...sports have been a big part of my life. I played basketball and volleyball in middle school and high school and continued my love for basketball in college. It wasn't always pleasant. With sports there are wins and losses, highlights and inj...

Church Hurts - I Give Up!

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"The kind of love that I experienced there cannot be expressed in words." - Suresh ( Imagine Heaven)   Last weekend at our retreat we came to the "Front Porch"...women in ministry. Pastors. Pastors' wives.  All who have experienced the joys of the ministry calling as well as the hurts of ministry. As women formed small groups to share their hearts with other women who share a similar role, I noticed their words brought heartfelt emotion to the surface. The heaviness of life. The pains and wounds of serving in the church.  As I recall my own church hurt, I remember thinking, "This shouldn't be. This isn't right." The very thing God called us to was the very thing that hurt the most in my life at that time. I didn't understand. I held on to that hurt for five years. I honestly tried to let it go. I was doing all the "right" things I was told to do - pray for myself and the unforgiveness in my heart and pray for my "enemies...